Nothing more or Nothing less
Sometimes you have to say it is what it is, nothing more or nothing less. You take it one day at a time and avoid overthinking it. Each day holds the grace needed to do what you need to do, and every experience has its joy and sorrows. And at the end of the day, you can say I did my best and gave my all, and now there is a reward at the close of the day when I lay my head to sleep. This life is not for the faint of heart, and what is seen, and all the unknowns accumulate and build pressure within, and the burden of living can take one's breath away if you let it. There's nothing you can do sometimes but wait and wonder, and the results will come soon enough.You can sit and wonder or keep pressing forward. Either way, the ending is the same, and you will transition one way or the other. The transition is glorious, and the homecoming that awaits you is grand indeed. However, there is a reason you are here on Earth, and those are the reasons you stay in the game of life as long as you do.
Accomplishing your task, living your dreams, and facing your trials are part of the grand design, and there's no way around it. It would be no different than trying to stop the wind or stop the Earth's rotation. It can't be done. So, press on, weary soldier, and you will make it all the way, and the nay-sayers will have their way, and everyone is right in their own eyes. The beginning and ending are similar, but the in-between is where one can lose their way.
There will always be someone trying to pull you aside and test your boundaries, and yet they see your boundaries are set in the spiritual, the realm of your beliefs and values, not the natural, the physical world. It's hard to win when you're up against a spiritual mountain, and the spiritual mountains can't be cast into the sea like some would want to think. There's no way you can surrender something that's not even there, and if you think it's there, then you will relinquish your God given right to be an individual. This is not for you, and you will win each time. You won't believe the lies. The truth is who you are and why you were sent to Earth, and the meaning of your life is not negotiable, and the power to change it is in no one's hands but yours alone. Amen